theres an elephant in the room.

Because the world is ending.

Most people are extremely demoralized and it is impossible to communicate with them.

The world is so wicked. Why did I get blessed and why didn’t I become one of those people? Why do I seem to be one of the only people that see it? Why does it bother me more than it bothers other people? What am I supposed to do about it?

“The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles. The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. A righteous man may have many troubles, but the LORD delivers him from them all.” Psalm 34

God made me a fighter. And sometimes fighting isn’t such a bad thing.

The truest statement I have ever heard in my life: “I learned the real meaning of love. Love is absolute loyalty. People fade, looks fade, but loyalty never fades. You can depend so much on certain people, you can set your watch by them. And that’s love, even if it doesn’t seem very exciting.” Sylvester Stallone Yeah I know it’s weird that the quote is from him.

Fact: People who care about me seem to be the ones that make me coffee.

“Read nothing from the past 100 years; eat no fruits from the past one thousand years; drink nothing from the past four thousand years (just wine and water); but talk to no ordinary man over forty. A man without a heroic bent starts dying at the age of thirty.” Nassim Nicholas Taleb Think about that and don’t forget it.

Be magnanimous. :)

a laugh a day keeps the posers away

during much of the time that i think during the day, it is about people. I am always wondering why and analyzing why certain people do or say the things that they do. even if they are not intentionally trying to tell me something, i read into it just knowing that they must be subconsciously trying to give me a message. obviously, this can easily put my emotions in trouble. I’d be lying if i said that all of my thoughts are rational. I read a quote today which gave me enough motivation to finally write in my blog. 

“If you wish to glimpse inside a human soul and get to know a man, don’t bother analyzing his ways of being silent, of talking, of weeping, of seeing how much he is moved by noble ideas. you will get better results if you just watch him laugh. if he laughs well, he’s a good man.” -Feodor Dostoevsky

What i like most about this quote is that i actually understand it. I know that a few years ago if i read this quote i would think that it’s alright or just skim over it. but i get it, and i know exactly what he means when he says to just watch him laugh. 

i always thought that the way to see someone’s soul is look into their eyes. you can tell so much by just looking into someones eyes. i don’t see good in most people. actually i don’t see much. most people cannot think for themselves. all of their decisions are made by watching the media, waiting for someone else to tell them what to do, or just going by some sort of routine. those people make it bad for all of us. they are the ones who have no purpose in life. their drive is based on bad morals, and for some strange fucking reason- they have convinced themselves that what they are doing is right.

“The burden of originality is one that most people don’t want to accept. They’d rather sit in front of the TV and let that tell them what they’re supposed to like, what they’re supposed to buy, and what they’re supposed to laugh at.” Marilyn Manson

but then there are the people who laugh well. if you actually take a minute, and think about this .. it will probably make you wonder about some people. and it will for sure make you smile a little bit.

“I love people who make me laugh. I honestly think it’s the thing I like most, to laugh. It cures a multitude of ills. It’s probably the most important thing in a person.” - Audrey Hepburn

how i got here.

there was a storm.

and i was in the storm with no shelter.

but in the middle of the storm, i was inspired.

they say, it is darkest before the dawn.

Bad temper, sensitivity, aggression all have to do with a persons insecurity and feeling inferior. Once i realized this, i was able to gain strength to handle these types of people. and it helped me to really be happy with who i am as a person. The more that this type of person will try to control the situation or to put you down and the bigger this persons ego… shows you how weak he is. one thing i don’t want is a person to love me because they need me.

“How people treat you is their karma; how you react is yours.” -Wayne Dyer

and i know once i handled the worst. the darkness. that i am strong enough to take a risk once the dawn came. during the worst times, you never realize, or believe that it is happening because something really good needs to come into your life. and it can’t happen until you take the garbage out and make some room for it.

“Love comes when manipulation stops; when you think more about the other person than about his or her reactions to you. When you dare to reveal yourself fully. When you dare to be vulnerable.” -Joyce Brothers

and i am taking a risk. to be vulnerable.

because he is beautiful. because he is responsible. because he is respectful. because he is considerate. because he is mature. because he knows what he wants. because he is a man. because he listens. because he cares. because of the way he looks at me. because he is funny. because he is crazy. because he is aware. because he knows how to have a good time. because he is comfortable. because he has integrity. because all of my senses are so affected when he is around. because because because he is real. and because i can go on with this list.

“Miracles come in moments. Be ready and willing.“-Wayne Dyer